I am a person you can't easily convince. You need to show me an image to be able to believe. Maybe because i am an artist, my mind is composed of a lot of images and proofs...But in my condition right now, i need to believe for a thing without an image, for a thing which is not visible to the naked eye.
Complete trust means: every time there's pain or discomfort inside my body. I should not worry. I should not think about the recurrence of cancer. Even though it is annoying, my reaction should not be negative. Yeah... my deeds should cooperate. Declaring and praying is not enough God wants me to show it and put it into action. God knows I can easily say things, and somehow I'm struggling when it comes to application.
Yesterday was actually my anniversary of first major treatment, as I reminisce those days I must say God never leave me, He's on my side when I was inside the operating room. Nightmare...that was i felt.. (when i was inside in that cold room, naked). And you don't know if you will see another sunshine...seems I'm dead...
It's been a year... and those memories will strengthen my faith to God. And I believe the Lord will help me to be consistent when it comes to my deeds.
Praise be to God!
